Today's Stuff

So much has been going on in life. I guess I have been more busy living my life and not doing as much time reflecting and writing. But, I want to preserve some of the good things that have been going on as of late.

First of all, I have been exercising daily and am down six pounds! But it is not really about the pounds, as it is the healthy feeling that I have. I just started doing the C25K program and on Monday when I was at the Y, Ashlyn did half of the training with me on the track and Maddie did the other half. Little Abbie is not old enough to walk on the track yet, but I let her "sneak" one lap with mom. It made her smile so!!

Secondly, I have been sponsoring a girl and she is early in recovery. She is recovering from a bad relationship and we went to a domestic violence group last night together. I learned alot and mostly what I learned is just how far I have come in my recovery from bad relationships. The lady leading the group knew my history and asked me to share about my piano being destroyed by Johnnie. It took me by surprise the emotions that came out of me later that night having dredged up that old memory. This morning on the way to work, I recalled with great force the emotion of what it felt like to be choked by him. For once, I gave myself some loving compassion for the fear and feelings that I felt at that time.

A little bit of acceptance was born.